People Asking If I'm Cool... I'M UPSET!
2 Peter 3:9 (ESV)
The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you,[a] not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.
At this current moment, I am in a weird transitional phase. As I reflect on 2019, I think of all the doors God has opened for me. Ratchet Revelations was released and doing extremely well with sales and overall feedback from my supporters! I have made some ground-breaking strides in my career that can ultimately take me to the next level professionally. And I have also been able to do speaking engagements, travel, spend time with family, friends and really make an impact.
While all that is cool and poppin'... I am not happy.
It would appear that I am in the prime time of my life... which would beg to ask the question...WHAT YOU MAD FOR SIS? For whatever reason, I still feel like something is missing. Something that has me feeling unfulfilled and I can't quite pinpoint what that "something" is. I have experienced several lonely nights where I didn’t even call my friends or family to tell them what I was going through. Why? Because I didn’t want to come off as being ungrateful. From the outside looking in, it appears that I have it “altogether”. But in reality, there are a lot of areas in my life that I keep asking, “God, why hasn’t this happened for me yet?” Have you ever found yourself asking that question?
Sometimes in life, we want everything to happen at one time. But for whatever reason, God is telling you to wait. Yes…. WAIT. Though God is telling us to wait...NOBODY LIKES TO WAIT. We live in a society in which everything is accessible from the tips of our fingers. If I wanted to order food from the comforts of my apartment, I can grab my phone, make an order and Uber Eats is right at my door. If I wanted a man, I can like a few pictures of a cute guy on Instagram, get on a dating app, and BOOM.. he’s in my DMs. We are in a time in which everything can be done within a matter of minutes!
Though our society is set up to provide instantaneous results, we do not serve a God of instant gratification.
During the time that I am waiting for God to fulfill his promises to me, I have learned to pray that He will allow me to develop a spirit of contentment. According to the Webster dictionary, contentment is defined as a state of happiness or satisfaction. It is the ability to be satisfied no matter your current situation. The Apostle Paul reminds us in Philippians 4:11-13, to be content with a little or with a lot. Paul went through so much persecution, to the point where he could have given up and turned his back on Jesus. However, Paul made a promise to himself and to God that he would be content no matter where God placed him.
Most of the battles we are losing, we are losing mentally. Everything is about mindset. What we think, determines what we say. What we say, determines how we act.
I have shifted my thinking from seeing God's "no's", to God KNOWS. He knows what he is doing and we make mistakes when we doubt that. I am currently in a feeling of unhappiness, because I am upset with the no's from God, when I should feel happy that He knows what is best for me.
Refuse to let negative thoughts get the best of you. Emotions control your mind and then the decisions you make.
Today, I want to encourage you to be happy in the arena that God has you in at this very moment. You are exactly where he needs you to be. The things that God has you waiting on will be revealed once you go through the process. Often times, we try to avoid the process. We try to avoid the journey, and take the quick route. However, shortcuts do not develop long-lasting results.
God has the ultimate best waiting for you..... *Migos voice*, JUST WAIT ON IT!!